Tuesday morning pondering

I've been super busy the past week or so and I really wish I had the chance to blog... I think this is the first time I've missed blogging. I got the wonderful opportunity to show a horse at The New Jersey State Fair last week. I spent the week running back and forth from my house to the show to work and take care of the horses, show and hang out at the fair. We did really well... everyone got at least one blue ribbon!
Being at the show made me realize how fortunate I really am. Not only do I get to show horses with some very talented people whom I am lucky enough to call my friends, but I get to have horses in my life all the time. While at the fair I met some people who had never seen or pet a horse before in their life. I have been around horses since I was 7 and I forget what it was like when they were not in my life. I can see horses every single day if I want to and I spend a lot of time caring for and riding them. Not everyone gets this opportunity, but there are few people I have come across from outside the horse world who don't want to spend more time with horses. I am surrounded by people involved with horses and for some reason assumed that everyone else has the same experience. I do this with so many other things in life and I have to actively remind myself constantly that my world experience is not the same as the rest of the world's. 
This is something I have needed to think of a lot lately. I've been struggling with balance and have overcommitted myself far too many times. I sometimes feel over-capable (not a word but another self-diagnosed flaw of mine) and stretch myself thin to a fault. I need to stop saying 'yes' so much... it always gets me in trouble. This, coupled with 14 hour days has made me a little bit of an emotional wreck...think crying over a spilled blueberry-peanut butter rice cake. While rice cakes are important to me, they're not worth crying over (I later laughed about this... probably because its so pathetic).
As usual I'm trying to fall back into a routine. This has become routine and I am beginning to think I'm chasing something that doesn't exist... but thats the American way, right?
I have one goal for this week: ACTUALLY COOK SOMETHING.
I have been eating way too many cut up veggies, hummus and rice cakes. I need variety. Let me know if you have any good recipes!